I'm Tired~~~~~~~~~!!!!

Another year passed~~~!!!
Didn't expect that I'm still up keeping this blog... hahaha
Sometimes when I'm bored, I'll read my past posting...
hmmm....
my postings seems to get more serious and kind of boring....
hahahaha....

So what have I learnt this year?
Alot, I think quite alot....
Especially human relation between friends, family, clients, suppliers & colleuages.
To build up a strong bond and to have trust in a person isn't easy, some may takes days to build up and some may take years to build up, but it only takes a simple choice or action to destory all the trust and bond.
I've been living in my own world for too long and forgot that time has moved forward.
My mindset for certain things are still left behind in time.
It's me... It's my mindset and choice in the past that cause me to face the consequences now.
Thanks for the advice from some of you... "No names will be mentioned here XD..!"
Though I'm kind of emotionally hurts this year,but I chose to let it go.
Some of you might find me weird or stupid, but by being a stupid or a weird person makes me happier ...!
Just let me be ~~~!!!
There's no point holding on to the sadness and start pointing or hating anyone.
It's diffcult to love someone, to me it's also diffcult to hate someone too.
If there anyone to point at or to hate, the person is myself... I knew it very well... hahaha.
I'll take this year as a big big lesson for me and make sure I'll never make the same mistake again. Hahhahaha~~~!!!
Hope what I've said or done when I'm not in my cool mind to think did not hurt anyone.
If it does, very sorry to all those people if I've disturb your life or hurt you during this period of time.

But of coz, there are still happy things happening around me this year. Hahaha!!!
Met quite alot of nice people and some people who I've never expect to come back to my life are back. Hahahaha~~~!!! Made a few nice choice which I hope will make my future a better one.

Anyway~~~!!!
Thanks everyone who has been with me for the whole year especially my Dad, Mum, Jiejie , Mui mui & Bibi, my friends Ah Fen, Shiro ne-chan, Pauline, Qi & Qin, all my cute n lovely maple friends, Rana, Nini, Benjy, Lightee, Engyew, Sonnie Hai, Sarbs.... etc and thanks alot to Hoshi-kun.

I wish it'll be a good, happy & healthy year for everyone I've mention above.
Love ya all~~~~!!!!

Happy Birthday to me~~~~!!!!
*Big Hugs to myself *

Alot of people in this world are always not satisfy with what was given to them and what they have in life.

They complain and they blame....

Complain & blame your dad and mom for not being rich?
To let you lead a RICHIE RICH LIFE?
Complain & blame teachers for not teaching well?
To let you score well and get a good high pay job in future?
Complain & blame what sucky life was given by God?
To let you lead such a toubled and stressful life?

Tell you what!
If you managed to see this posting, your life isn't that SUCKY, isn't that UNFROTUNATE, isn't that BAD!
If you have such a bad & sucky life, you won't have the time and $$$$ to browse and read blogs!

STOP COMPLAINING & BLAMING!!!!!
There are TONS of people out there, who are leading a worse life than you are.

I've heard people telling stories saying that his/her family is poor and parents dun dote on him/her. He/she has to help out in supporting the family and have no extra money to buy the things he/she really likes.
Trying hard to gain sympathy from others Huh?!
On the other hand, he/she was spending money on branded clothes, on handbags, on cigerattes, on drinks, on toys, on the latest mobile phone etc.

COME ON!
What Bullshit are they talking about?
POOR? NO DOTING PARENTS? LOUSY LIFE?
FOR GOD SAKE... Dun make me L.M.A.O Please.....
STOP rattling to others how poor you are, while dinning in a resturant with all the branded clothes and accessories hanging on your body!

When you gets real Poor & your life is real sucky, you won't even have the time to think of what you'd LIKE to buy. Your whole thoughts will be thinking, "HOW DO I EARN $$$$ TO BUY THE THINGS I NEED? So I won't get bashed up by my "Doting" Parents."
Provided you are born normal to think this way.

Maybe it's a real bad sin done in previous life, maybe in this life she has to repay all.
Thank God for your love on Esther!
It's time for her to lead a peaceful life.

A few weeks ago.
Given the name Esther, leads her to a new life.
A life I bet she'll never dream of having a chance to lead in this life.
For the past 48years of her life, I guess fear is the only feeling she has, when she woke up to the next sunshine.

Due to the early death of her grandparents, a proverty-stricken family is the only words to describe. Esther's father, not only has to take care of his new setup family, he had to take care of some of his own siblings who are not very much older than his daughter, Esther.
The meaning of taking care of siblings in this story is to provide food and shelther till you grow up to maybe 9 or 10 years old and out you go to find work and help out with the family income.
"In your dream he'd say for extra money to go school. "

Eldest among the 12 siblings, Esther was the only one born abnormal.

If you think your parents treated you badly by nagging at you all day all night and not buying the latest mobile phone for you, Eshter must has been living with a pair of devils for the past of her life.

From one look, you'll know she's different. Born not bright but Esther sure is a hardworking girl. She does housework, wash her own clothes and dishes, do some simple cloth work and she earns too. What's wrong with her for just being a little different from others? She's a much more better daughter then alot of us out there as someone's son / daughter. A person who does work and not a single complain, she doesn't have such calculating and complicated mind set like a normal child.

They beat her up just because they are moody or unhappy.
What has she done wrong to get such beatings?
Is it because she can't speak well and she's too small to fight back, so she gets all the beating?
Shouldn't they dote on her more?
Everytime when the smell of anger appear, little Aunts & Uncles of Esther would carry her and ran off to hide. But how long can Uncles & Aunts protect her?
As time goes by, Uncles and Aunts & Esther's siblings grew up , went to work and starts their own family. Leaving Esther living alone with her parents, with no one to protect her, the beating got worsen in recent years.

Abuse.

Can you ever imagine, when you are entering a house and you saw a skinny girl not taller then 1.40m running to you with mouthful of blood? How heartbreaking it is to see such a scene. Immediately, tears were shed from the eyes of Esther's youngest aunt, who paid a visit that day. Threaten to bring Esther away was what the youngest aunt did, but in vain when the parents of Esther begged and promised that they'll not beat her up as they needed her to help out in the cloths works to earn a living, they were not in good health.

Running away is the only way she can protest.
How far did she run? Nobody knows.
How long has she not getting any water and food? Nobody knows.
Why does she run away? Everyone knows.

Recieving phone calls from one of her siblings, Heung, always brings the news of Esther running away from home to the youngest aunt and family. Heung cries to her youngest aunt that she and her other siblings couldn't find her poor sister Esther.
They wondered if she was raped, killed and thrown into jungle?
Wondered was she eaten up by tigers in the forest?
Wondered if she was dying of hunger?
Searching high and low for Esther, nearly got herself knock down by a truck.

The day after Esther was found, another phone call from Heung again.
Her parents tied Esther up to prevent her from running away again and beat her up for running away.
How in this world can parents be so cruel to their child?
Heartless!

Everyone questioned.
Why didn't anyone made a police report?
One day Esther would die from the abuse!
Why didn't Esther's siblings made a police report?
"How can I bear to report on my parents? No matter how bad they are, they are my parents afterall."It was the answer given by her siblings.

So where are the neighbours when they hear cries of Esther?
Why didn't anyone save her?
Another heartbreaking story huh!
The neighbours did not report the abuse case, yet there they were standing close watching and laughing away when Esther was beaten up!
If you don't want to help then just keep your mouth shut.
Esther was living in a town of devils! With Tons of cruel bastard in the neighbourhood.

Last few weeks, Heung gave her youngest aunt another helpless phone call.
Again Esther ran off, for a even longer period this time.
"Pray to god, Heung. It might work" says youngest aunt.
And soon enough, after Heung pray to god for help everyday.
News of her sis was found, given a new home, a new name and a new life.

Finally for years of fear and torture, Esther was given a chance to lead a new life.
If you think Esther is pitiful enough? You are wrong.
In the new home where Esther is staying, there are much more pitiful people than she is.
At least she can take good care of herself there and she can even help out doing simple chorse which helps other disabled.
She's leading a more meaningful life.

Be grateful of what you have and what was given to you.
If you think your life is sucky and lousy.
Be reminded that there are others living in hell everyday.

So STOP crapping about how bad life is!

Isn't he cute~~~~ Ｏ（≧▽≦）Ｏ